Oh buddy, where to begin! For the last two weeks I would log into to my WordPress account and try to come up with something to say, something to express, something to write! But my “new post” tab would remain unused for the most part. Now I realize that there is so much I want to convey that it really needs to just come out as it is in my head because trying to organize it into paragraphs kills my motivation to even have it typed out. And because I don’t think in organized or even coherent paragraphs. Therefore, what you are about to read is just mental diarrhea of things that have been filling my head, some more than others, but all keeping me away from any sort of consistency with updating here.
Aaaaand start!
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Aiman is officially walking! Woohoo! Since we started talking him to our aunt’s house his confidence in walking has shot through the roof. I’m sure it’s because he wants to keep up with the kids running around, but little man can walk with a serious pace now. And get this, he pivots! He can walk and then turn a complete 180 and continues walking without breaking his pace, so baby boy is now a real-deal toddler.
It’s amazing. It really, truly is amazing to see him walk to and away from me. He’s like a real miniature human being now or something!
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I’ve noticed that I haven’t been reading as much as I used to and that bothers me. Well, I mean, it’s a little late to notice seeing as it’s been a good year or so since I’ve read a really good book. Actually since college. Like four years ago. Should I not say that?
But the thing with me is that I put off reading something I actually want to read until I’ve read everything I need to, like textbooks or articles for school because school is still a huge chunk of my life and will be for a while. So looks like it’s time to put leisure reading back on the priority list.
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I also want to start working out again because panting after going up a flight of stairs is not cute. No, not cute at all. So I’m thinking about starting yoga which coordinates beautifully with something else I want to try -mediation. I have to admit that I thought yoga looked pretty easy compared to something like Tae-bo because I judged it by its cover, so to speak, but I understand that a workout doesn’t have to be high-intensity to have results and benefits. So don’t lecture me on it, I am now enlightened.
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PBS had a three part series (Tuesday-Thursday) called “This Emotional Life” and I have to say that I have never been more inspired or interested or deeply motivated as before I saw this series. But I’ll admit that I didn’t like part 2; parts 1 and 3 were the best to me, especially part one which talked about relationships in regards to family, friends, and lovers. Guys, it completely opened my eyes and it really deserves a whole post to itself, which it will get because it’s that damn special and worthy.
It was just oh-my-goodness-I-want-to-change-my-life-right-NOW good.
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I’ll definitely elaborate more on this after Sunday because we’re trying to squeeze in as much family time as possible before then, but Saad will be starting graduate school in a different city and that one fact alone has shifted a lot things for us. Luckily I have both of our families here, so I won’t be alone with a baby and managing school all by myself but still.
He won’t be here.
We won’t be physically together.
And that kills me.
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More on a couple of these things later this week or next, but consider yourself officially updated with my little life. If you really care, that is. Which I assume you sort of care a teeny tiny bit because you’re here?
Yes? No?
Yes, I care a little teeny bit.
on reading: I know textbooks suck, and I feel the same way When I’m in school: that I must get all school reading out of the way before I leisure read, but really, reading is YOUR time. I love to read and go crazy if I don’t have a book I can submerge myself in when I really need to. I think you should put time aside ASAP to read.
on working out: I’ve been doing the 30 Day Shred for almost 30 days now. Karen and I (over at KarenChatters.com) kind of e-mail back and forth with our progress. And my sister and I do the same thing, which kinda keeps me going. The scale hasn’t budged at all, BUT I do feel and look better, which is enough to make me want to keep going. I’ve been wanting to start mediating, too, but I’ve been having a really hard time finding time in my day to sit down and do nothing. Is that bad? I’ve been meaning to start breathing techniques for, like, TWO MONTHS now.