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I don’t know where to begin with this letter and I’ve honestly been stressing over it for a while because 20-something years from now when you’re reading this, I want you to know just how much you mean to me and your daddy. I really struggle in finding the right words to convey the emotions accurately, but the truth is that the appropriate words don’t exist, so forgive me while I use what colloquy I can.
Three o’seven AM this morning on December 10th, will mark the 365th day of your long awaited arrival and conclusion of the most life defining year of my life. A year overflowing with the purest of love, most demanding of life, and sweetest of rewards.
Your birth sparked a new journey for me, one that I will proudly wear as part of my identity for the rest of my existence. Everyday I look at you and wonder how I could be so lucky, just so incredibly lucky, to have this experience with you.
In this one year alone you’ve showed me what it’s like to love fiercely and unconditionally. To think, breath, and live for
- silly fun and faces
the sole purpose of someone else. You’ve also showed me how much I need to learn, to mature. How much I need to be better in everything I do because it’s all for you. You’ve taught me that being selfless can be a good kind of selfish, in the sense that sacrifice on my part can benefit you, which is what I want more than anything else.
You’ve taught me more in a year than I’ve learned in my whole life.
Till this day I stare at you while you sleep, wondering what dragons you’re slaying in your sweet, peaceful slumber. When the glimmer of the night illuminates you face, your perfect silhouette illuminates my heart and it beats faster knowing that you’re mine to love forever. The way you insist on sleeping nestled into the left side of my chest tells me that the sound of my heartbeat is still powerfully comforting to you. The countless ways you show me you love me from slobbery kisses, complete with little bites from time to time, to wanting no one but me when you’re upset makes all of the sleepless nights and dirty work of motherhood more than worth it.
- sitting up!
Much, much more than worth it.
I will also admit how you have tested my patience, even as young as you are, and how many times I’ve felt defeated by an infant. The times when I’ve cried along side with you because it was just too much to bare. The exhaustion of caring for you coupled with my own struggles reached the depths of my soul and forced me to mature faster than in any other point of my life –something I am thankful for.
My son, you posses numerous valuable qualities that are apparent as early as this stage in your life and that I hope serve as the foundations for your actions.
I hope that your iron-clad will for the things you want translates into your determination to strive for the best in your ambitions. I hope your gregarious personality brings you true friends, and more importantly, that you encompass what it means to care for your fellow-man. I hope that your motivation drives you to succeed and that you have the confidence and strength to live up to your own definition of success. I hope that your heart melting smile brings about smiles from others. I hope that your imprint in the world leaves inspiration and positive trails for others to follow.
- check out my ride
Ultimately I hope and want and dream the absolute best for you so that you in turn give your best back to the world.
This past year is only the beginning of a long, challenging, and beautiful journey, one that I know will have it’s peaks and pits, but your mere existence makes me want to be a better human being for your sake, and mine. Therefore I promise to give you my best because you simply deserve it.
Aiman, we are so very happy to wish you a Happy First Birthday our sweet, sweet love, our utter joy.
Here’s to many more candles on your cake!
I Love You Forever and Always,
Mama
mother and son
This is beautiful, but don’t you just feel like words don’t do it justice? NOTHING can describe the love a mother feels- nothing.
Exactly! which is why i made the preface in the beginning.
Hopefully this letter will only reinforced what he already knows.
ahhhh, this motherhood things is a roller coaster of emotions!
Ooh, I love this. I totally woke up this morning and thought “It’s Aiman’s birthday!!!” Hahaha, isn’t the world nuts sometimes? That someone in Alabama not only knows it’s your baby’s birthday, but is excited?
I love this letter so much. I am positive he will, as well.
Awh thanks Steph!
It makes me happy that your excited about Aiman’s birthday. We’re eager to hopefully meet one day, so that the computer screen isn’t the only mode of communication we have!
Thanks babe, and talk to you later!
How fun! What a handsome little guy. Happy first birthday, Aiman! And happy first year of motherhood, Amira.
Thanks Brooke!
Amira! The first post i’ve ever read and it makes me smile! I am sooooooo glad ur boy is a year old. I still remember when you told me you were pregnant! It’s crazy how we all grow up and now take care of someone else. May Allah continue to bless you and your husband, and the rest of your family because I know they have just been the biggest support for you.
I love yall! I come home on the 17th sooooo plenty of time to see you
Come over as sooon as you can! we’ll be waiting!
I love the “check out my ride” photo! His face is all “whaaaaat?”
ok, so can I say “awwww” without sounding completely mushy? Honest to goodness, I’m in tears right now because about 16 months ago, if I had read this post, I would’ve thought this mother is a lunatic child obsessed weirdo, but now I am that lunatic child obsessed weirdo. Like I don’t understand how people “choose” not to have children, they really don’t know what they’re depriving themselves of. Ok, I get into town on the 21, we gotta do a playdate this time around!
I know what you mean about not understanding until you become a mother too. Let me know as soon as you’re here and we’ll get together!
my baby’s grown and changed so much :’) mashaAllah
mashAllah
and he did change soooo much! i mean, look JUST LOOK at his newborn pictures and then now? WOW, totally different looking kid.
I realize I’m a few days late but, you just made me melt!
I haven’t given birth or endured the horrendous amounts of pain, but I do know that there is something magical when a little munchkin can steal your heart away and turn all the sacrifices, pain, struggles into the sweetest of sweets.
Hope you you and your family had a wonderful time celebrating Aiman’s first birthday. =)
thank you sara!
I cried.